pretty thing May 21, 2008

I have this obsession about buying stuff for the girls…in the mall or online… my mother always screams at me saying that my girls are backed with everything you can think of from; clothes, toys that I can practically open a toy shop, shoes, and anything they need in between….but I love buying thing I think they love or look good on them…I was shopping today for the girls stuff in the market when I spotted this really cute pacifier for my R2 who is the only girl with pacifier and this got me thinking of blinged baby gear or baby personalized stuff

      

I bought this in green

–I found this really adorable & really expensive baby stuff site called dimples and dandelions some stuff like the bedding or these really blinged with crystals;

  

I think I will get these T-shirts

–this site is very cute & I definitely will buy from next month; pretty personal gifts ; they offer personalized stuff like jewelry or bags or clothes;

  

I’m definitely buy 3 of these with my girls name on the top..it looks cute

 

I need therapy

sadness filled the air May 20, 2008

I grow up with a mother struggling to complete her education & support me…she didnt think I needed more, but I did..I needed someone asking me about my day & really listening to me..I had my older aunt for that.. she treated me like her own daughter..taking me everywhere along with her kids…I practically lived at her house most of my childhood…when I wanted to marry my sweetheart she was the one who stood by me & talk to the family..then when I had rough times in my marriage..she told me to keep holding one to it & put my family first always….then after giving me this advice she died a week  later of cancer….     

that was 3 years ago,& I still cry most of the time without any reason..she didnt see any of my girls.. I wish she did.. I miss her soooo much….

I had so much drama in my life & sometimes I miss talking to her… or crying at her shoulders…I wanna say this to her:

I love you with all my heart… missing you always …    

goodbye May 19, 2008

yesterday I took the worst decision in my life ever… I sold my car & bought the family mini van….I’m only 26, everyone I know told me not to but I made my mind already….     I think my reasons are totally hidden in the back of my head, cause I looooooooooooove my car & one day I woke up and said; I need a bigger car… I hate myself now ..cried all the way to my parent’s place…my hubby think’s I’m acting like a drama queen….. it’s a very sad week for me…. maybe one day I will tell the whole story        one day

young or vintage May 17, 2008

I have a very lovely & adorable 2006 murano orange..I fell in-love with it the first time I saw it..I used to have only R1 and we look great & funky in it…but then I had R2, R3..it feels that my car dont fit anymore & small so I went car huntting & loved this family mini van…the delima is that everyone around me thinks it’s a waste & I’m tooooooo young to buy a mini van or any family car… I dont know but I keep telling them that I dont care about my image in my car only that it makes my girls happy   dont know what to do ? tell me please